with love to all,

mmk

As life unfolds within my being and I realize and even know for certain, and become more conscious and aware of my immortal being in eternal life, dark nights of the soul loose their attraction and are exposed as the erreneous mist before the dawn of day break.

feeling so anguished “thinking” I don’t even want to exist anymore-yet I already know that is impossible, for life is ever existent, and I am that life, then it’s not for long that I can stay to long attached to the passing dark clouds of thought- Unconscious mind games begin to loose their hold as the consciousness of Truth expands, piercing the mist of clouded thought–The hide and seek game is over-the pretense is over-you can’t fool me anymore-

What was I thinking? It doesn’t matter Now- I am not my thoughts-nor was I ever-

The mirage never did exist as a reality-why spend any more time trying to explain that which appeared but did not really exist as a reality-

In the dawn of day break-
Love,
Gyanama

so you already know how determined are your beliefs to keep you exactly
where they have control of you , and the ones that serve you least
are the ones that will launch themselves on you when you are down.

there is an art to being down. and lets face it we can not be on the summit
every day.
we can not ‘ know ‘ every moment. because the most powerful part
of our walk here is in our faith knowing that we are loved and that we are Love.
so we have to have that gap between known and uknown
to either dangle in like a frayed hissing wire trying desperately to plug into something anything –
or we choose .
we choose to surrender all we know, at that moment, all we’ve learned,
all we want… our future wants past, and the whole lot – our worries problems,
all of it, give it to God. and be nameless.

and you made such a good point, that its as if part of you wouldn’t want to be ok.
and you already know , that part of you does not want to be ok. that there is a part
of you , who does not give one iota about your well being, your connection with your Self and God, not one bit. This part – and this is same with all of us,
is terrified that it will ‘ lose ‘. that it will be overthrown, ingored, not understood.. etc. etc.
and will pull out any worry in you it can, that keeps you attracted to it , versus
you freely choosing .

when i am down, and feeling like crap
one of the best ways to feel worse,
is for me to do an accounting of all the downs i have felt
versus the good days.
then to look back at all the summits i had felt,
and then question why on earth i am still here in these bottom of barrel
places, when i have been there . and even though, by now
i know this will make me feel worse, i still do it.

the light comes on. as soon as i get rid of comparisons of how i was yesterday,
or six months ago, or this morning as compared to now –
as i lose the fear of where i am…..the light comes on.

if i don’t fight it, all of a sudden without even realising it i will start
thinking of a song, or a little picture i want to draw, or something
will just naturally beckon me from the space i’ve just allowed by not worrying.

but you are so right.
when you are there – at the place of mental spew and drawl and who gives a shit
its hard to want to stop being that way.

this is literally
one of the greatest opportunities for movement and growth that there is.
as you stand at that place going through what ever emotions or feelings your fear
self will throw up in order to keep you there,
you have to simply choose whether you want to hold
the hand of fear , or the hand of Love.
and you do not do this alone.
request Backup i don’t know why people are not doing this .
Call on God to come and be with you .
pretty much as soon as you do that
the battle is won
for that day.

and then is the next day and the next.
its a hard slog, and the closer you get to removing a fear
the tighter it will hold and the more sneaky its devices..
if you are determined not to let fear control you , and so sick of
the endless rotations of this circle and that one, that you
want to just sit and stare out a window
don’t stare out the window. haul your butt
out of where every your sitting, and completely open yourself
out to God. no matter how revolting or boring or ugly or what ever mood,
Choose and let Him come and be with you in that moment.
not to work anything out. or solve a problem. just to be with you .
thats is All.

Thanks so much. Love.

Yes, Higher Self directs it all, but we are here to learn to become ‘conscious’ of everything, so it’s important not to suppress what is happening to all in a covert way, and that is alien interference over our minds, bodies and spirits. Sometimes implants are placed in the etheric body to prevent us from connecting to our higher selves because it serves this alien force by ‘using’ our energy and diverting it to them. When we become aware of this interference, we need more than just mediation, we need intervention from the Lords of Light. Christ, Vishnu, Durga, Buddha, etc, whomever you align with. They love us, and they need us to pray for help and help arrives. One day, all these galactic shenanigans will all be revealed.

May the forces of loving light be with you all.