Doubts on a Path
I am having doubts about the beliefs of a path I have been seriously following. This path, Akram Vignan from Dada Bhagwan, has an enlightenment ceremony in which one can have direct experience of the Pure Soul, after which one follows five basic steps for life which will take one towards moksha. This path does not hold that meditation is useful for this spiritual development; it is considered an experience of phases of mind, not direct experience of the soul. I had been meditating and reading widely until finding this path a year ago. I did not know where I stood about God, but was searching for spiritual connection.
In recent days I have started to question the fact that this path does not hold that there is no God as creator of us and the universe. God is simply within all life and the universe is created by “scientific circumstantial evidences”. Some part of me believes there is a higher power we are from and also can connect with. I also feel that surely meditation is one way of connecting and a truly spiritual tool that can also lead one to final liberation.
My questions regarding leaving the path:
I will try meditating again. But I am confused and worry that if I resume meditating on my own, I might get lost or not progress as I would under a guide. I have read before that meditation requires a teacher to help one navigate and stay on the right path.
Which brings me to finding a teacher – an enlightened guide. Again, I am concerned about how to find a guide and teachings that I accept entirely. I am scared because I have heard that one can be deluded (for instance in leaving my current path), so can I trust my own judgement? Shouldn’t I be able to tell the Right Way for me when I find it?
Do you believe that the right guidance will always come to someone sending out a fervent request to the universe for help?