Regaining Trust

I have been in an emotional roller coaster since last year. I found out my husband’s unfaithfulness and lies. I decided not to leave the relationship just because of this but I have tried to forgive everything he did to me. Everyday I ask Jesus to help me live my life and forget all the pain he caused me. I really want to stay in this marriage and trust him but I am torn apart. I have no peace of mind, no happiness whatsoever. I asked myself if I leave him will he find happiness and will I too? I see that he is meeting me halfway during this effort of reconciliation. How do I give fully trust this man? Whenever I leave for work, my toxic thoughts of him possibly sneaking around again poisons my mind. I want to stop and love myself. Help me Dr. Chopra. God bless.