Unhappy with God

I always have a hard time whenever “god” or conscious universe is brought up. I absolutely believe in the connectedness of everything, and in manifesting your desires. In fact I can feel the rightness of most things yourself and Mr. Dyer speak about. I always get hung up when god or a plan or any religious dogma is mentioned. Why do you feel that there is an overall plan, and a directing thinking consciousness? I guess when I think of it this way it makes me feel more separate and less connected. Like there is a separate being in control of everything, when I feel more like there is a collective universal consciousness that is made up of by all of us and everything, experiencing the universe as it happens and directing our own outcomes based on our faith in our ability to connect to the source. I don’t know why but the thought of a “god” really bothers me.