I am trying to regain my inner strength by living natural healthy lifestyle. I have always been very strict with self and now want to train my mind with love and softness. It is very difficult to do meditation and exercise on regular basis at home which is now critical for me in order to live healthy life. My mind always finds one after other excuses for being lazy. I have no motivation for living longer this way but find it very hard to change it. How do I motivate myself ?