I lost my mother recently and am feeling absolutely lost. I find myself in 2 realities sometimes. I have no energy, my body feels tired all the time and I don’t know where I am going. Please advise.

If this life / experience is just an illusion, why are we so busy in saving the planet? Also i know of people storing up food for the coming disasters planed by the so called illuminati. By doing this I sense that I am feeding the illusion? I would really like to know.