Looking for simplicity

I am just over 90 days clean and sober. The few books I have read by you have been a great help. I am very grateful.

I would like to keep my spiritual life simple. The books I have been reading I certainly understand intellectually and they sing to my heart. I truly love this new found spiritual thirst.

However, I need to keep my feet on the ground. I have not been much of a “normal citizen” and working and living in this world is a far cry different matter than living the life of a yogi which frankly seems quite appealing.

Meditation and Ego Concerns

I have been doing PSM meditation faithfully twice a day for at least four or five years, and I am currently experience a lot of fear and self doubt and having trouble sleeping. Why is this?
When I take the ego test, I am totally caught up in ego…..and I don’t really have a sense of WHO I am or WHAT I truly want. How can this be? Where have I missed the boat?