Marital Decision

I have a question for you that I have struggled with for the last 2 years rather intensely. I am married to a man that I have “fallen out of love with” in part because of difficulties with compatibility earlier in our marriage, over the years I met and fell in love with a Dr. I worked with. I felt a spiritual connection with him that I had never felt with another human being. His wife left him last year, and I have said all along that I would leave my husband. Strangely enough, I have not been able to do that. My husband was 36 years old when we married, never before having had a serious relationship. We will have been married 13 years in September. This is my second marriage, and I am afraid if I leave my current situation, that history will repeat itself with this Dr. He has never said that he loves me , but my intuition tells me that he does. He does not want to be responsible for breaking up a marriage, nor does he ever want to be married again. I feel that I would be happier in the long run leaving my husband, whether or not the relationship happens with this Dr. or not. However, my husband loves me so much , even though I have confessed my feelings for another man, I still love and care about his. I don’t know what to do. I have prayed for happiness for all of us. I am “content enough”, although I feel like I’m “settling” and taking the easy path by staying in my cozy, comfortable setting. I want to “live, love, and taste life. I know I will live to be 110. I’m 50 years old, and healthy, active, and am excited to get on with the next chapter in my life, but I feel stuck. What do I do? I have read 2 of you books, The Spontaneous Fulfillment of Desire, and How to Know God. I enjoyed both books immensely. I look forward to your reply. Have a Great day!

Faith

I have read almost all of your books, & other spiritual books for no avail about faith. why is it neglected, or become above human knowing despite it was the basic of Jesus’ teaching. can u have a clear insight about it like how it can be developed, lived. Please do not say faith is the ego’s fear to future & a way of controlling the future. Thank you for any suggestion you may have.

Thoughts in Meditation

I’m new to meditation and have trouble getting into the gap between my thoughts. It seems that every time I try to meditate, thoughts keep running through my head.  I can’t make them stop!  What can I do to still my mind so that I can enter the gap between my thoughts and begin experiencing the benefits of meditation?

Marital Insecurities

I am struggling internally and I am not sure how to overcome my fears. My wife and I have been together for almost 15 years and this time last year we went through a phase where she questioned her love for me. To make a long story short, I found out that she was attracted to another man and that she was flirting with him at work. We have discussed this at length and are beyond things in the sense that we have renewed our love and bond for each other and have embraced the love we share with abandon. But she is pursuing or has pursued recently a relationship (friendship) with a buddy of the person she was attracted to and is not disclosing any information about this to me. I fear it is to stem a relationship or interaction with the person she was attracted to. I have always struggled with trust and jealously, with control and possessiveness but I thought I was making progress. I so want to let go and just trust in what I believe in my heart to be true but my ego stops me by creating suffering internally, feeding into my fear. I would like to discuss this with her but believe that she will feel that I don’t trust her and it will make the situation worse. I know that she doesn’t have to tell me everything that goes on and that she is free to make her own choices, I just cant seem to overcome my fear and its making my paradise, hell. Any advise on this would be appreciated.

Marital Insecurities

I am struggling internally and I am not sure how to overcome my fears.  My wife and I have been together for almost 15 years and this time last year we went through a phase where she questioned her love for me. To make a long story short, I found out that she was attracted to another man and that she was flirting with him at work.  We have discussed this at length and are beyond things in the sense that we have renewed our love and bond for each other and have embraced the love we share with abandon. But she is pursuing or has pursued recently a relationship (friendship) with a buddy of the person she was attracted to and is not disclosing any information about this to me. I fear it is to stem a relationship or interaction with the person she was attracted to.  I have always struggled with trust and jealously, with control and possessiveness but I thought I was making progress. I so want to let go and just trust in what I believe in my heart to be true but my ego stops me by creating suffering internally, feeding into my fear.  I would like to discuss this with her but believe that she will feel that I don’t trust her and it will make the situation worse.  I know that she doesn’t have to tell me everything that goes on and that she is free to make her own choices, I just cant seem to overcome my fear and its making my paradise, hell.  Any advise on this would be appreciated.