I once had an experience where I as a light had become part of the entire light and consciousness and at that time was able to see out from his eyes and at that point all time was happening at the same time. no fear, no mystery, no darkness. Just the glow of love and the light of all knowledge.

It’s always been my  inner belief that God originally separated himself from himself in order to be able to see, self validate and to confirm himself ? And we as beings simply the many separated parts of him all possessing a common thread which sews together the tapestry of this universe? I’ve always felt this and that I was a part of God.
My question to you is are you and I of the same mind with what I just said?

I am not able to meditate or even still my mind for a moment. The incessant chatter of the mind goes on continuously without any specific subjects and I feel tired of myself. My mind does not know how to relax. I have tried various methods, even hypnotherapy. Though I must say that after the hypnotherapy course I felt good for some time and was able to focus better on things. I keep trying to search for something (I don’t know what so I can’t give it a name, happiness, peace, security, God??). But seem to fail. I’ve tried practicing Buddhism, follow different faiths and I am still where I was… nowhere.

I am sure my question also sounds confused. Do you really think the PSM would help?

How do you know if you are experiencing a higher state of consciousness or you have a mental illness such as Bipolar 2?  I have had what I thought were higher states of consciousness such as feeling the presence of God but now that I have been diagnosed with a mental illness (Bipolar II) I do not know what to believe, what is real and what is not.

I am influencing positive change and growth around me at work, or among the people I meet and know, however I am feel like I am not being given credit for what I initiate. This has gradually intensified in the last year. Most of the times people just take my ideas and make them look like they are their own. This situation makes me very sad and I would like to get over that sadness. Should I stop giving ideas or suggestions to people? I think I am volunteering my help too much, but I don’t know how to stop. I have people at work that act like they hate me every time I say or do something. I was very successful and good at my job, but I and lowering my performance by the day and I am losing my passion for this. How do I break this pattern?

I recently took a 6 weeks stress leave, I quit smoking 3 weeks ago, but after a week back at work I feel the same way again and my energy level is lower than ever. I have never been in this situation before, and I would like to perhaps change it for the better. I would like to start my own business, but I am so exhausted that I lack in creativity and fear takes over.

I am having angry feelings now during the holidays because I am not able to be with my husband because he works in Nigeria – he just left yesterday for  a month (he works rotational a month and returns for 3 weeks).    I am having trouble getting motivated to buy gifts, send cards or plan any holiday meal.    We have never missed a Christmas and I feel deprived about this, and I know others are probably having more difficult things to worry about but I cannot help it.   I am not accepting his work very well and this is just another example of my rejecting the work overseas, which I cannot change.  What should I do to feel grateful and not angry when I see everyone going to parties and dinners and shopping and enjoying the holidays together, which is what I really like about the season?  I know helping others is one way to get your mind off of your own situation and I know this, but it does not help me.  I still feel anger.