I had a spiritual awakening 12 years ago. In which I had a feeling of total calm and peace and everything around me had a “light” around it. In fact after this awakening I would spend hours just driving around looking at everything and seeing God in everything around me. This feeling left me months after it happened and now I can only get brief glimpses of this feeling and seeing this light around everything. My question is this- Is there a way to get this back? Or is that a once-in-a-lifetime occurrence? Does the new feeling wear off and you get used to seeing this light?

How does one move beyond inertia? Is it strength of will, finding the motivation, or is there more to it? For the past two years I have felt as though a huge unidentified barrier exists when I think I’m ready to move forward. For all the plans I’ve made and all the things I think I want to change, I cannot find the internal strength to risk anything! I don’t consciously say “no, I can’t go there, do that, or whatever the case may be. I physically begin to feel nauseated and anxious and immobilized.