As children we were taught “no, no, no”  when we were exploring our environments. In this way we were taught how to have  power over another. Then we become parents finding ourselves in the same situations. Protecting the ones we love through our decisions we make for them. We do have the highest of intentions however these intentions are a way our ego expresses itself, for surely how are we to know God’s intentions for another being placed in our immediate surroundings.

So let’s say when someone asks or needs help, I’m unable to say “no” even when it may put further strain on my personal well being. I have a hard time wondering if God is coming through these people and if God asked me for help. How dare I deny him. This is the inner struggle I face in being able to say “no” to others request. Then of course as an individual I struggle with the feelings of being walked all over. Having my kindness manipulated. If its life threatening of course no is easier to administer however if a minor inconvenience or the fact that I may personally do without to give to someone I love, i.e. children, lovers, parents. the sacrifice seems minimal to the sacrifices of others especially God through Jesus. Is this life I live not the life of God in expression.

So I guess what I am seeking is a theory where you believe God says NO is necessary.

I was diagnosed with Asperger syndrome in 1998.  I am mostly affected by any social situation.  I can also, very easily have sensory overload and suffer meltdowns.  It limits my day-to-day life greatly.I train horses and dogs, spend a lot of time in nature, but when I have to interact with people, I become very quiet and reserved.  I’m much better with animals. My question is, how can a person like me contribute to my society.  I’ve read all your books, watched your DVD’s and listened to your CD’s.  You have already helped me so much.

I once had an experience where I as a light had become part of the entire light and consciousness and at that time was able to see out from his eyes and at that point all time was happening at the same time. no fear, no mystery, no darkness. Just the glow of love and the light of all knowledge.

It’s always been my  inner belief that God originally separated himself from himself in order to be able to see, self validate and to confirm himself ? And we as beings simply the many separated parts of him all possessing a common thread which sews together the tapestry of this universe? I’ve always felt this and that I was a part of God.
My question to you is are you and I of the same mind with what I just said?

I am not able to meditate or even still my mind for a moment. The incessant chatter of the mind goes on continuously without any specific subjects and I feel tired of myself. My mind does not know how to relax. I have tried various methods, even hypnotherapy. Though I must say that after the hypnotherapy course I felt good for some time and was able to focus better on things. I keep trying to search for something (I don’t know what so I can’t give it a name, happiness, peace, security, God??). But seem to fail. I’ve tried practicing Buddhism, follow different faiths and I am still where I was… nowhere.

I am sure my question also sounds confused. Do you really think the PSM would help?

How do you know if you are experiencing a higher state of consciousness or you have a mental illness such as Bipolar 2?  I have had what I thought were higher states of consciousness such as feeling the presence of God but now that I have been diagnosed with a mental illness (Bipolar II) I do not know what to believe, what is real and what is not.