Eruption of the Shadow Self

Although I am a fairly young man (25) I have reached the Atonement and have completely given my life to love. My purpose is love, and true happiness for me is experiencing it in others. I have completely changed

my perception from form to “I am not a body, I am free”, and I am able to experience what my senses cannot. Having said that my question to you is; if I am experiencing Heaven through out my daily life, than why when I sleep all I experience is fear and guilt. Nightly dreams of irrational behavior, distrust, destruction and things I wouldn’t ever do such as murder. How can I correct my destructive dreams.