I lost my husband on Jan. 13th. I saw a spinning spiral turning very quickly and viewed a bright tunnel that looked like a lit up pipe stretching into a dark sky. No, I’m not on anything and don’t drink. I was with my step-daughter at the time and saw this when I closed my eyes. A second later, the tunnel shot out into space like the spaceship Enterprise on Star Trek…out of sight. Alarmed, I opened my eyes and told my step-daughter “I’ve just seen your father’s passing!” The next morning, I received a call from the hospital saying my husband had died early that morning.
If I were hearing someone else say this, I would wonder if they had indeed experienced such a thing. But it happened. I have no choice but to believe there is such a thing as the Universe and the tunnel of light. I would appreciate your thoughts about this experience.

I have been searching for inner peace for a long time and always hit a brick wall. I am physically, emotionally and spiritually drained. When I close my eyes to meditate I just burst into tears. I am anxious to start a new journey to wellness but lack direction. What would you suggest as a starting point?

I fell in love with a 22 year girl (for the first time in my life, I’m 32) who was my private teacher in music. At first, I found her just cute but I did not feel attracted to her at all as a women (maybe because she’s young) but I felt an immediate connection with her I’d never felt before. From her body language and many things, signs I felt from the beginning that she was really attracted to me, and as time went by I realised that I had feelings for her. (It seemed her personality was very similar to mine) and I wanted to get to know her better but did not get any real opportunity to meet her apart from our classes (she had a boyfriend) although I tried everything. After 6-7 months I wrote her an e-mail in which I told her to stop lessons since I had feelings for her and how I knew the whole thing was so unrealistic etc… I also met with her but she was very negative and hostile and had nothing nice to say to me. She behaved as if she was a different person. (although by that time she had broken up with his boyfriend).
How do you think I can move on? I feel so UNFINISHED since I never got a real chance to get to know her. During summer we had no lessons but I wanted to meet her so much that we accidentally met on the street. (was that accidental? This kind of thing never happened to me before.) So, I’m still hoping that life gives me a second chance to get to know her but it’s been a month and nothing happened and maybe that was it. What do you suggest? Maybe I should not have stopped our lessons but my feelings hurt me so much and no possibility showed up to get closer to her. It hurts so much and I miss her and don’t understand why this happened.