I took the primordial sound meditation teaching with one of your instructors and they explained my personal mantra as the sound that was made at the time of my birth. Since I studied with the instructor I have become afraid of it. This morning I had a deep, spiritual dream that has led me to think of our will being very delicate and that what I am choosing is based on past experience and really a type of hell. The thought that surfaced was that I have to get back to the beginning but not in the past. The thought of practicing my primordial sound meditation popped into my head. My question is, will practicing the sound meditation take me further into this world (earth) or bring me closer to God? There is so much uneasiness about it because I do not want to do anything wrong and end up alone in some horrifying hell. Please help. Thank you.

First of all I want to thank you from my heart very much for changing my life. You put the light on my way to get to know God better than ever! Your words are just the message that God ever wanted me to know!
I have a question for long time:

In the law of karma what happens when you have been a “bad boy” for a long time, or you haven´t been who you must be (as a good father, as a fried, as a human being) but with the time you realize you have made things wrong and you regret it and decide you have and want to change your thoughts and your form of living and you become a new spiritual human being
Does it affect somehow your karma, I mean the responsibility you have to take your acts before you change your thoughts? What role does forgiveness play in all this?

I hope you can understand my question. Your inspiration helped me to start writing in English, but I have to practice more
with love from Colombia.

I was wondering how you explain dreams which predict an event which then occurs, or dreams which are synchronistic with the dreams of another person.

How will you know when your intended desire has been asked of the universe? What should you do while waiting for your desires to manifest? I am having trouble letting go, I feel like there has to be something for me to do in the mean time.

I wanted to ask you a question about metaphysical meditation. I think that is what it is but am not sure.
Since I was a child I have on occasion meditated on the physical universe and all existence within it. Visualizing it’s vastness in my mind. I then try to bring my focus to the outside of that universe, to the outside of that physical space. What was there before the universe? And what space is that space since it cannot be the physical universe. If it was not here there still must be something or is it just nothingness? Unbeing…is that possible?

Thinking about that visualization and focusing on that meditation brings on a very overwhelming feeling which is indescribable. I think it is fear or anxiousness. I am not sure. I even physically feel it right in my solar plexus and the tingling sensation has been so strong that I have to stop the meditation at times.

However on 2 occasions the mediation ended in an overwhelming feeling of happiness or satisfaction I am not sure again. The first time this happened was when I was about 8 or 9 years old and it was the first time I thought about it. I wondered what would there be if none of us were here including the universe. What would be left and the meditation left me with an actual high. Since then it has happened one other time.

Could you please shed some light on what is going on? What is it that I am trying to conceptualize and why does it give me such a strange feeling? I am a Buddhist in philosophy but am not familiar with all of the various dogma from the lines of teaching. I simply try and follow the simple tenets and mostly the teachings of the Dalai Lama and a few other Buddhist teachers such as Geshe Kelsang Gyatso.