Desire or go with the flow?

Hi, my question is I know we are responsible for all we experience in life, I have my desires, my dreams, but they don’t seem to happen, at times I think well maybe I’m not doing things right, I’m not following the steps, but then I think no, things always happen the way they should be, I believe this and feel this, like my higher self knows better what I need to learn, so relax and enjoy life. Sometimes when I think about free will I get anxious because I think ok I want this to happen, so I have to do this, do that, but I feel I need to flow with life. I mean if we are all one, this oneness doesn’t it knows better than me, more than the ego me? Thanks so much for answering my question 🙂