After finally spending time on myself I had a light bulb moment. I have free will and I am worthy. I have lived a comfortable, boring life. First being decided by my father and then by my husband. If I had been asked I would have said that I exercised free will throughout my life but in reality I have lived a life of someone else’s choosing, I was just along for the ride. I am 53 and defined by my cancer and its side effects within my family. I am startled by how I have denied my soul and don’t know how to take the first steps. I have been meditating and praying. How do I use my free will (which will take me down a different road) and feel my new found self worth, without seriously hurting those I love? I am in such turmoil and feel that because my time on earth is limited I need to act now. Thank you.

I read The Book of Secrets twice and enjoyed it very much. However, I feel as to practice what is in this beautiful book, you need the people around you to come with you and join you in your journey otherwise they call you eccentric if they don’t understand your method of changing. I feel as I am alone in this boat and sailing in this amazing ocean by myself and see people look at me in a different way when they find out I am actually practicing this book. It is hard to believe as how many people out there going against humanity lie, cheat and bully.
I want to know how I would practice the book and all in there when nobody else is doing it? How do you respond when someone reads your book and call it heavy or extremely out there. I understand a lot of the topics and some things are not that clear, but all in all I get the message and I am going to keep practicing it. But please respond as what my answer would be to these people. It makes me realize as one of the subjects was about our environment being a reflection of ourselves. I feel a bit bad about myself when I see my environment and I don’t want to admit it reflect who I am. But I guess that is part of knowing myself better in order to change. Once again I thank you for this amazing book and look forward your respond.

Can you tell me if I am mislead in my belief that when you are following your right path, following your destiny, then everything should be smooth sailing and without obstacles? Do bad events and pain mean that somewhere you have taken a wrong turn? My relationship has recently ended and through all the ups and downs I never thought us to be anything but soul mates. With exception of those that have died I have never before had to let go of love. I have never had to reject what is in my heart to obey my brain. This feels wrong but the only option I have to move on. I am also confused because where I am now feels oddly like where I am supposed to be. A tragic event occurred whilst we were together which I would give ANYTHING to change but without this happening I would not be where I am now. How could my heart have betrayed me and led me towards something so bad? If I cannot trust my heart to lead me in the right direction and away from hurt then what do I trust? My gut instinct has always been my compass but now I am lost.