I have been meditating regularly. This is a relatively new routine for me; within the last year. I often begin my routine meditation by listening to the Soul of healing meditations and continue with silent meditation afterward. I try follow this protocol once each day.

I have been able to reach the silent space and sit with no thoughts. I do find, however, that at that silent time a word or theme will present to me. This does not always happen, but does frequently enough for notation. Interestingly, the word of phrase will repeat in subsequent meditation sittings until I give it attention in my waking state. i.e. Look up its meaning etc.
I am Canadian and not of Indian descent, however the words given to me are often not specifically familiar to me, when I receive them.
I thought I would share some of these words in the order they were received. It is often  one word per sitting. It may also involve pictures or other more personal themes:

– Prana
– Gita
– Veda
– Sita
Just curious as to your thoughts on such happenings?
I have so many questions on this journey and often find it can be a lonely path to find others to share what is occurring through the changes and events with deep meditation.

I have been trying to manifest my desires and getting nowhere.   I have always believed in positive thinking and last year read the law of attraction and thought that took positive thinking a step further.   I can’t get it to work for me.   I have tried to keep my thoughts on what I am trying to manifest and not be discouraged because it is not happening.   Then I discovered your web site and now one of your books “The Book of Secrets” and you believe in ‘letting go’.   I just don’t get this.  I am trying to manifest my desires by keeping my intention clear and foremost in my mind.   If I let it go and give it up to the Universe, have I not just given up on my desires?   I can’t connect this to concepts in my mind and I don’t know how to let go.   Can you clarify this for me?

I have another question.  Tree of Knowledge in Christianity:  So Adam and Eve symbolically eat the fruit from the Tree of Knowledge and then they saw they were naked.  Since I was a young girl I have been searching for Truth.  I equate truth with knowledge.  Then this new thought came to me yesterday… we ate from the Tree of Knowledge.  So, does this mean that there is something even larger beyond the Tree of Knowledge?  That knowledge (concrete truth of being) is only an aspect of who our Creator is or who we are?

The 6th spiritual Law of Success, Law of detachment seems to be a tough concept for me to grasp.  Does Law of Detachment mean you submit your desire to the universe and just trust it to manifest.  Or does it mean that what your desire should not define who you are.  For example, if you want a car, you should not think that without this car your happiness will not be fulfilled.  Instead you  should believe without any doubt in your heart and soul that the universe will manifest this car for you in some way.

Each day I awaken with the greatest of intentions.  I meditate using some sort of guidance, usually a podcast from the Chopra Center, as this is what works best for me, right now.( I’m just beginning)
I live on a lake and take advantage of the calming sounds of the water.  The waves echo my breath,  the wind becomes my breath and all that surrounds me is within me.  It is glorious and I feel as if I am home . . .
BUT, the moment my  husband comes home, with his moods and remarks,  the spell is broken!  And then I actually RESENT him for breaking my peace. (although I know it is ‘I’ that does this.)
Before I go into work, I take time out to be quiet.  I feel that I am brilliantly lit.  When at work (nurse), I have the best intentions to be of service to my patients and make a difference with each word, gesture or kindness I can bestow upon them. I know that I am fortunate to have this vocation.

The mood of the institution, right now most especially, is one of uncertainty and chaos, with job-cuts and budgets.  My co-workers complain, feel unappreciated and are worked beyond normal means.  I become one with the collective consciousness  . . .  I am like a sponge, absorbing the mood of staff and the place as a whole.  I end up complaining, perhaps not as much as I once did, but I still do. I leave there discouraged, defeated and feeling awful about myself that I was unable to remain untouched by outside forces.

I see a small progression, but if I could only sit on my rock by the water . . .
Why am I so weak?  Do I have to move to a cave or monastery to stay away from the judgment and negativity I’m seemingly absorbing?  Is it because I am empty, like a sponge, that I am so susceptible, so open to suggestion? How does one fall ‘deaf’ to the tremendous negativity of others without getting “sucked in”? Does it get better?
I feel such a frustration and ‘failure’ when this happens to me. Sometimes my ride home is filled with tears.
Also, how do you determine that situations and people are toxic, or whether they serve as  important characters in the play? How much is ‘too’ much work, to keep relationships alive?

May your insight  help me find my answers.  I sincerely thank you.