Eruption of the Shadow Self

Although I am a fairly young man (25) I have reached the Atonement and have completely given my life to love. My purpose is love, and true happiness for me is experiencing it in others. I have completely changed

my perception from form to “I am not a body, I am free”, and I am able to experience what my senses cannot. Having said that my question to you is; if I am experiencing Heaven through out my daily life, than why when I sleep all I experience is fear and guilt. Nightly dreams of irrational behavior, distrust, destruction and things I wouldn’t ever do such as murder. How can I correct my destructive dreams.

Learning to Heal

I have noticed for some time that I seem to be involved in a situation that allows me to access healing for others.  I believe I was first awakened to this possibility by healing myself several years ago. Usually, someone will tell me about an ailment they are suffering from, and I will silently introduce the intention that they will be freed from this ailment. I might reintroduce this intention during meditation, or before sleeping at night. Usually, I will notice that I develop a very mild symptom of that person’s ailment, but then we are both usually freed from whatever it is.  This is usually completely effortless on my part. I had an unusual experience with my daughter, though. She was rather ill, and in order to determine exactly what was wrong with her, she had to have blood drawn. The technicians were unable to draw any blood, and after the 4th

technician began his final attempt, I focused all my energy not only on his success, but on her health.  The technician was able to draw the blood, and when the results were read the next day, she was perfectly normal. Within a number of days, she was in better health than she had been for some time. I, however, began to have very sharp, rhythmic pains that lasted for several hours and was completely exhausted for about 2 days. What happened? As I write this to you, I even feel echoes of this experience in my body.

Unspiritual Desires

Relatively new to meditation, I’m still finding my feet. I do so want to discover myself as I really am, the spirit I am. Yet, I do have so many material desires that I want fulfilled real fast. I’m looking for miracles which I trust are going to happen.

My concern is, I don’t want to lose the real purpose of my spiritual quest while playing the tempting game of material acquisition, using the power of my thoughts. I know desires are never ending and I’m only human.
I don’t want to find myself lying on my death bed and wondering why did i wasted my ‘powers’ chasing ‘things’ that I had to leave behind.
Will I have the courage to look beyond ‘creating abundance’ after a certain level?