Meditation and Near Death Experience

Sorry, I do not speak English. The text below was written in Portuguese and translated by Google. But I need this much response.

I am a 55 year old Brazilian studying and practicing self-taught meditation for 20 years. I am a great admirer of his work. Have read several of his books, interviews, and also attended various films and videos. I know of no other philosopher who can intertwine so accessible concepts of ancient Eastern wisdom with concepts of quantum physics in a simple, concise, transparent and at the same time profound. For me it is a privilege belonging to his generation. Maybe I could not reach the unitary experience of consciousness in this life was not the contagious brilliance of his ideas and his work

The 6th chapter of his book “How to Know God”, makes the following statement:

“The irony of the near-death experiences is that, in return to tell how they felt raptured by the dazzling light that bathing, do not realize that the light was there the whole time. It is your own Self. ”

Then I had this experience of near-death about 10 years ago, never ‘saw’ the presence of light. I would like to know how to feel again the presence of light – the very self – in meditation. Need a lot of response.

Body Guidance

I was listening to an audio recording of yours ( a series with you and Wayne Dyer) and you were talking about body knowledge and how it comes down to comfort and discomfort.  The conversation was around listening to the body and if something’s uncomfortable look at what I can do to move towards comfort.  it is a simple concept, but then I think about in my own spiritual practice (I work in Toltec Shamanism) and how we intentional go towards the discomfort in order to move through.  I know I am interpreting what you’re saying through my own filters, but it almost sounds like avoiding discomfort.  If I think about my own life, and I’m sure many people can relate to this, and a situation such as visiting my parents.  Lots of discomfort!  Do I then avoid visiting them and choose instead to sit out in nature or go run off to Mexico (which I do choose often!).  In my spiritual practices, I would look at the discomfort and go sit in it for a while..choosing to sit in he discomfort in order to move through it, to understand it.  I believe there’s even a Chinese proverb about the only way to conquer the dragon is to become one with it.  So, perhaps you can clarify for me what you were speaking about and how this relates to my question?

Pregnancy Decisions

Seven years ago I met my current husband, I was a single mother with a daughter of 16 years old. When we were dating I did tell him that I don’t want any more children, and he agreed to it even though he didn’t have any kids.

After we got married he changed his mind and said he wants a child and this has been his dream to have a child. We had many fights over this. At that time was 38 and he was 49. He gave an ultimatum that if he doesn’t have he would leave me. I gave up and since I was 39 and we didn’t have that much time, I did the insemination and got pregnant with 3. The fact that I was going to have 3 more kids scared me so much, and during my pregnancy I was so so ,so sick, I couldn’t eat, sleep and my body wasn’t cooperating with me at all, nothing would stay in my stomach even plain water.
After 3 months the doctor told me I need to reduce one of them since there are too many complications. I reduced one and after about a month I had a miscarriage and lost the other 2.
I was relieved and just a little sad, it didn’t effect me that much. My husband was very sad and depressed, after that I did two other inseminations and didn’t get pregnant.
We both gave up because we felt we are too old. Now my husband is very sad that he doesn’t have a child and most of the time depressed. My question to you is should I feel guilty that it didn’t happen for him? Is it my fault that he doesn’t have kid? If there is law of Karma is it possible that this is based on his karma that he shouldn’t have any kid in this life time?
By the way he is a heavy drinker and smoker and that was another strong reason that I didn’t want have kid with him.
I need your insight it means a lot to me since I admire your way of thinking so much.

Thank you for your help.

At a loss

At the age of 52, I am at a loss. It seems to me that whenever I have been passionate about something in life and had the intention, worked towards it and wanted it to happen, it has always rebounded. My husband of 25 years I’m sure loves me in his own way but has never encouraged me in any venture mostly because it takes way from attention given to him. My marriage was on the rocks for most of the 25 years, even as the children were rowing up. I have decided that, since nothing seems to come to fruition despite my best efforts, I will devote my energies, which were previously dedicated to the rest of the world, to him. Although yoga is and will remain the core of my life, I have given up my desire to study Ayurveda and further my knowledge in so many things. At work, I have done my best, not being attached to the results of my efforts, happy that a positive thing was done. I am an intelligent logical woman who has embraced spirituality since childhood. If my Karma is such, what is blocking my path? I don’t feel sorry for myself, I just don’t understand what I could be doing wrong. I have read your books and follow your guidelines as they echo my beliefs but I am at a loss because my essence is compromised by this choice which I feel I must make.

Loving Voices

A couple of years ago (11.07) after an accident I started hearing voices they were pure loving voices. Teaching me about life, death the soul, the universe and its power. I have pages and pages of things written (the voices told me to record) I started journalizing.
I was admitted to a psych ward- which I did need because I was manic! I was diagnosed as having bi-polar. After a few days rest and lots of medication I was sent home, I relapsed after missing one dose of medication (an anti psychotic)- I was sent home the same day. I had never felt as happy as I did when this was happening, it was like a flood gate had opened and all the universal wisdom was at my feet, though I could not control the comings and goings of the spiritualistic messages.

It felt like the medication had worked after a month or so, the voices gradually subsided.
I later (03.08) found out that I was pregnant I had a healthy baby boy. I was overjoyed! I treasure him and thank the universe for granting my wishes and giving me a beautiful baby boy everyday. I feel life is the most precious gift I know.
I could confide in no one, so I slowly rejected my beliefs/spirituality due to fear or being judged. Which I deeply regret now.
I moved from the city to a small coastal town as I felt it would be an ideal place to raise a child. I have always had a strong desire to live with nature, I feel at my most relaxed there. I have a partner I have been with him for nearly five years but it hurts me so when he has no time for my beliefs, (because he can not see it, it doesn’t exist). I want to teach my son to know himself & to be one with nature, I feel that both parents need to be on the same page and I don’t know what to do?? Like any other parent I want my child to succeed in life, I know he is destine for great things.
I have always been a dreamer, I lack confidence in myself. I aspire to be like you, I have heard great things my mother and grandmother highly recommend you and your teachings. Living in Australia I’m not sure what avenues to venture, I want to learn and practice what i preach, i want to lead a fine example for my son. I eventually want to inspire others and educate people about the universe and the infinite opportunities available to them. I feel lost because i do not know where to start. Its hurts to see so many sick and suffering people in the world, it hurts me when people take life for granted and care not for mother earth. I really want to help.
I know i can succeed i just lack discipline, is there anything, any books you can recommend that will teach me the best approach?
Thank you for your time, I hope to hear back from you.