I quit my job on 08.08.08 to start my own business. I did not realize that the economy would change and so business has been extremely hard. I am a creative person and I did love my prior position, but just felt unfulfilled because I felt it was time to learn something new. So now I am learning aa lot of new things but I sometimes wonder if I made a mistake since I have almost lost my home over this decision.

I thought that I would feel fulfilled or have a direction by now, but instead I have been struggling financially  and feel doubt and uncertainty about my direction /future. I thought after a year and a half of being patient…. that a new clarity/direction would eventually come to me.  I just do not have that clarity of purpose. Instead I feel as if I am still in fog. I guess I felt I would have a stronger position or a stronger destiny. I was thinking I had a higher purpose, but instead I just seem to be in a waiting area.

I need to feel passion for what I do for a living or I just do not have the motivation. But if I feel this passion, nothing can stop me.

What do you suggest to people who need clarity and to locate their higher purpose or destiny. At 42, I need to get on with it!!!

As I have come closer to the awareness of my true nature, something  has always come up to stop me from moving forward. I become attached and clinging until I no longer can take the pain and suffering I have caused myself. Starting over, I am relieved but find I have this habitual way of being which does not allow me to progress very far. Inevitably, I will experience some discomfort which will force me into non-action toward self-realization. How can I stay on track?

How does medical attention for a potentially fatal illness square with living out our karma by being afflicted with the condition and perhaps eventual death. If the illness, suffering and perhaps death are needed for our karma to be fulfilled, should we not seek medical attention?

Intellectually I know that the need for validation is an ego trait, but it is very difficult for me to get past. I seem to have daily breakthroughs in my interpretation of the data all around me, yet when I try to share this fascination it’s lost on my peers. By peers, I mean my wife because to her the things I notice are simple just like breathing. It’s so new to me though I feel like a child whose just learned how to read. I’m fumbling through Doctor Seuss while she recites Shakespeare. I read three of your books and I feel the answer to my question is obvious but I need validation. Is there any affirmation or exercise that you know of that would help me through this phase?