When your physical body passes, does your energy simply return to the One Source, becoming everything, and nothing, as your own consciousness merges with Go, or do you continue your spiritual journey in the eternal here and now with the ability to consciously merge and separate your Spirit with the choice to merge with God or to experience life in the spiritual or physical realm?

Back in December I found myself at the edge of desperation. After months and months of constant prayer I started to wonder if God does exist or if it was just an illusion that we cling to in order to survive. I happened to be at my mother’s house at the time to spend a few days during Christmas celebration. As I wondered about the existence of God I looked and guess what I saw on her bookshelf: How to Know God written by you. I felt a miracle had just occurred and that I would be able to find the answer(s).  I read and became absorbed by the book and many questions became clear. I returned to Oregon, my place of residence, and another miracle took place. I was shopping with my daughter, we were looking at books and a young man that I had never seen in my life said You should read that book as he pointed to A New Earth by Tolle, and then you should read this other one The Power of Now, unless you are a very religious person. I picked up the first book he suggested and a week later I purchased the other one.

I began to practice and meditate. I found your website and put the podcasts in my ipod. All these tools have given me much help and I am working on a daily basis to come out of the emotional turbulence that I find myself in at times.
My problem is: I used to date this man who one day stopped calling and taking my phone calls.  There are many details here and all I have hoped for is to know why. I’ve been in relationships in the past where I have been told: we should not see each other anymore, etc. That honesty made my life so much easier because I moved on and continued with my life without resentment nor anger. But not knowing? This has been like an emotional/psychological kidnapping and I am having a difficult time. Meditation after meditation, on a daily basis all I ask is to be free from this episode. I feel I have so many tools yet I feel so alone facing life and this particular task. I truly pray for this man that he may be well, that he does not lack anything and that he is happy. I work on forgiveness and I truly hold no anger anymore and if I catch myself feeling something negative towards him I immediately pray for good things for him.  But at times I ask that question Why? and I feel sad. It has been a year since the last time him and I spoke. I am not sure where to go from here and I hope you have a suggestion for me. I am really trying.

It has been years since my husband died and I’ve done so very well.  Yet, now I find that I’m stuck between wanting to move forward and just wanting to reach him and be there forever.  Not long ago I met someone who lost their wife a lot earlier than I lost my husband.  I found that when I talked to him and he looked at me, it was as if I was talking to my husband and he was looking back at me.  Someone suggested that it was the universes way of telling me that I could move on and I’ve been trying to look at it in those terms.  I’m a great believer in going with the flow, but I guess that experience has made me very impatient with myself.  I’m a wonderful essence and after having 43 years of a beautiful marriage I refuse to chase after happiness, but where I am now is intolerable……..

I know that helping others is a way out of this place, but if I can’t help myself, how in the world can I help others?  Friends who have lost a loved one have told me that all of this is normal, but I don’t want to be normal, I want to fly free and live and love again.

Many self help books suggest not to pay attention to unwanted things as the law of attraction states, the universe will bring exactly those into life. So how is it that when I’m meditating, it helps to get relief from discomfort and pain by rather focusing my attention to the body parts that is hurting? I don’t necessarily picture myself feeling better or pretend to feel better while I focus my energy on my ailment. My question is, if I can cure my ailment by focusing my attention to it, can I also do the same by paying attention to the unwanted things in my life and release them?

I have been studying various spiritual paths for over twenty years and have incorporated ideas, meditations and practices as my higher self has lead me, including some from your teachings. I’ve been trying to reconcile the concepts of a “spiritual hierarchy” and a path of initiation that includes various rules and codes of conduct (like in some of the works of J. Krishnamurti and Baird T. Spalding) with what I’m reading in your book “How to Know God.”  Do you embrace the concept of a spiritual hierarchy that requires initiates to follow specific rules, or do you think that in this new millennium, we are sort of getting past that and going more towards an all-inclusive approach (sans rules, requirements and tests to pass on to higher levels of initiation)?  Is there another book (of yours) that you’d recommend besides “How to Know God” that would help me out with this?  Thank you.